Monday, July 29, 2013
This is the post that does not want to be written. It refuses.
I don't want to explain my biggest weakness to you. But it's next on the list of "52 Weeks of Blogging with a Purpose," and I like to do things in order!
How about I explain... a weakness?
I have a real problem doing things when I'm not in The Zone. I don't like to write blog posts when I'm not in The Zone (this is why I'm still pretty sporadic here). I don't like to cook when there's no inspiration. I struggle with the mediocre output of those out-of-zone times. This whole "nose to the grindstone" thing has never been for me. Which I think is a problem. Maybe it's not, but I think it might be.
I tend to be a starter. I get huge ideas that I run as far as I can and then... I don't know! Then I need someone to take over and make the rest happen. I need real support to follow through. I don't like the "data entry" portion of any job. I don't like that feeling when something I love to do becomes routine. I feel like something real dies when I get to that point.
I would rather not do something than do it halfheartedly.
What I need to figure out is how bad is this weakness? I think it might be holding me back--keeping me mediocre in the big picture of things--the very thing I am hoping to avoid! I can't be great without great habits. Great habits can't be formed without some grindstone moments... pushing through the fuzzy every single day.
Or I can just make friends and business partners with an accountant. They live for that data entry portion I can't stand!
An honest entry deserves an honest response. I think maybe it's time to tell you a secret.
ReplyDeleteThere's a different Zone. Like, when you start running you're in "The Zone" and it's really exhilarating and all the runners are around you and the wind is flying through your hair and you're excited. Then you enter into side-aching, leg-screaming, brain-wondering-why-you-did-this-to-yourself. You're between zones. But if you keep running... then... you reach a Second Zone. Zone of Runner's High. Zone of endorphins.
And though I definitely see you as suited for management and inspiration and great-idea-starting, I thought it only fair that I let you in on the perks of nose-to-the-grindstone :P
Hmm... I remember this mysterious second zone from teaching... and dieting :p. I think a person has to decide what's worth second-zoning for... and what's maybe not. Or maybe it's possible to get yourself to Zone 2 on multiple (read "all") platforms at once? What do you think?
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